Beginning of Junior Year

So I got through my first week of Junior Year.. and it has been really stressful.

1) I have a pretty rigorous schedule, with 8 credits

2) When I'm stressed, the littlest things can set off my emotions

3) Sports are always important but of course take up my time.

4) I have anxiety issues unfortunately.

I just constantly worry that I won't make it through , then I won't make it college blah blah blah. It just sucks. It's like I never feel good enough I guess. Which is ridiculous but it's a work in progress

On a brighter note though, I've been making church part of my life again, and just not in seminary either.  I've been going to Sunday meetings all by myself and I'm getting ready to start seminary too.I even started over on personal progress. I'm really trying to find myself religiously again and I think I will be a much better person because of it. At least I hope so. I hope Heavenly Father can see I'm actually trying.

I'm doing home study this year, and part of it is because I am not a morning person. But the other part is because I feel like I will get more from doing it by myself. I don't want to rely on others to do the work for me, I'd rather just work my way through it. If it really won't work I can always switch back to early morning seminary. But for now I'm getting an extra hour of sleep and doing a half hour of work starting at 6 a.m. everyday. I think that extra hour will make a big difference sleep wise.

Well in other news, Ben and I are still doing very very well. Only 6 more months to go. March 1st, 2011 is when he will be home, that's the goal I believe. I'm so excited to have him come home, I really do miss him and I know he's a much better person and that just makes me so happy. This mission has been worth it, it really has. Even though my life has become more stressful and such because my rock has been gone, I know it has made me a much better person because of it and I can stand on my own two feet. 

I think that's all I need to say for now.

---Sam <3