As we get into the swing of things...

Well, Junior year is still very stressful I must say.
It's a lot of work. And I'm not sure I'm dealing with the stress all that well.

Most nights I'm not going to bed until midnight or later and trying to wake up at 5 sometimes. And 6:30 if I can.

I used to be an excellent writer, and I could have sworn English was my best subject. But it just isn't at all anymore. Now I'm a science person...major switch. I guess I just don't put my passion into writing and I don't take risks?
New Goal: Take more creative risks.


A.P. Chem is kicking my butt right now with all the labs. I have a few labs I need to finish by September, which seems like a lot. But when it is 8 labs, and you have 1 completely finished, it adds up. I wish I had motivation to get it done!

All my other classes aren't terribly demanding, but everything together adds to stress. Good thing I am pretty organized as far as getting everything accomplished. Even if sleep is lost.

6th Grade camp is coming up. And I'm really nervous. I've never been a camp counselor before and I like the counselor I'm paired up with well enough, but it's still scary. Especially being a new comer during all the stress.  Tonight my partner and I went shopping for things we figured we need. We are the Frog Cabin, and we found a few things we can use. We're making tie-dye shirts and goody-bags for our girls. We also found a frog nightlight (: I am excited for the decorating portion, but not the tearing down.

Well the most recent and probably most depressing part of this blog is my most recent sports injury. I ran into one of my other teammates because of the miss-communication on the court, and between the coach and his players. So now I'm stuck with major whiplash from a 180 degree faceplant. This is awesome, as well as my chin being bruised. ):

It could've been worse, but now I'm out for a few days. Hopefully all will be well for my tournament on Saturday.
Gotta love sports!


Benjamin is still doing very well (: He is ready to come home, but at the same time he needs to stay strong and finish, which I know he will. It's the 4th quarter! Time to suck it up and give it all he's got.

I must say that I'm very thankful for him, my true-blue friends, and my family<3 The Gospel is back in my life as well, and that's probably my biggest blessing right now.

All in all, doing alright. Each day has it's struggles but somehow I make it through time and time again

Always,
     Sam<3

Beginning of Junior Year

So I got through my first week of Junior Year.. and it has been really stressful.

1) I have a pretty rigorous schedule, with 8 credits

2) When I'm stressed, the littlest things can set off my emotions

3) Sports are always important but of course take up my time.

4) I have anxiety issues unfortunately.

I just constantly worry that I won't make it through , then I won't make it college blah blah blah. It just sucks. It's like I never feel good enough I guess. Which is ridiculous but it's a work in progress

On a brighter note though, I've been making church part of my life again, and just not in seminary either.  I've been going to Sunday meetings all by myself and I'm getting ready to start seminary too.I even started over on personal progress. I'm really trying to find myself religiously again and I think I will be a much better person because of it. At least I hope so. I hope Heavenly Father can see I'm actually trying.

I'm doing home study this year, and part of it is because I am not a morning person. But the other part is because I feel like I will get more from doing it by myself. I don't want to rely on others to do the work for me, I'd rather just work my way through it. If it really won't work I can always switch back to early morning seminary. But for now I'm getting an extra hour of sleep and doing a half hour of work starting at 6 a.m. everyday. I think that extra hour will make a big difference sleep wise.

Well in other news, Ben and I are still doing very very well. Only 6 more months to go. March 1st, 2011 is when he will be home, that's the goal I believe. I'm so excited to have him come home, I really do miss him and I know he's a much better person and that just makes me so happy. This mission has been worth it, it really has. Even though my life has become more stressful and such because my rock has been gone, I know it has made me a much better person because of it and I can stand on my own two feet. 

I think that's all I need to say for now.

---Sam <3